<3 / Angel Williams (Friend)

Missing you

We thought of you with love today,

But that is nothing new.

We thought about you yesterday,

And days before that too.

We think of you in silence,

We often speak your name.

Now all we have is memories,

And your picture in a frame.

Your memory is our keepsake,

With which we'll never part.

God has you in his keeping,

We have you in our hearts.

*~ Love you ~*

R.I.P

This poem made me think of you as i read it so i just thought i would share it with you.

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Hey! / Sarys Perez (Friend)
Hey Los...I know i havent wrote to you but ive been trying to reach out to you in so many ways...specially in my prayers..but i cant get to you!. I trully miss you..And I thank God everyday of my life that I got to know you, and spend time with you in Liberia...You made me realize that nothing is for granted, and we have no choice but to love one another and to Trust God. He does everything for a reason.. but do u remember when we were in the hotel room and there was no electricity and u came out & scared me with that flash light...while we was in the balcony?? And i told u to get ur gay self back in the room?!?And then when me and the girls stole ya toilet paper..and u were going nuts because u needed to use the bathroom?!??!?!? What about Monopoly?? since u were losing u picked up the game and threw it out..cuz u were mad!!!!! hahahahaha u had some baby tantrums! OMG THOSE times were sooo funny...u almost made me fall laughin...and remember Solomon? He never wanted to be away from you bcuz he looked @ you as his Role Model.and a big brother?..Everyone loves you Los, I'm just a lucky girl who got to meet such a beautiful person like you.... I have some pictures of you hangin in my house..My mom says that way we can have An Angel watching over us and protecting us...I will never 4get you Carlos...Love ya<3 Close

Hey Baby! I miss U!  / Jessicqa Diaz (stepmom)

Hey Los,

I've been away from your site for a minute now.  That does not mean I don't think of you.  Theres not a day that goes by that my heart stops aching.  Theres always someone, a memory, place, song or just looking at your dad that always brings me back to you.  I stay late up at night and look at hte steps how u use to come half way down and just stand there watching the TV, and I will ask what happened di u want something.  I can stilll hear you calling your dad.  I miss you so much.  I haven't been myself lately.  I feel like the old me is taking over the new me and I don't want that.  I'm just so stress out all the time.  I just wanted to stop by, even tho I speak to you every morning.  I love you Los, I wish you were here with us.  Yesterday, I drove by your crash sight.  Not on purpose.  Somehow on my way home from where I was coming the GPS took me that way and I realized it when I saw Abington Hospital.  I was with my friends so I just played it cool, besides I didn't want to bring everyone down but everything came back to that day.  I was able to talk about it but I just rather not.  I still ask Why?  Not as much but I do.  I just hate this.  Parents are supposed to die first!  I love you honey.  I will talk to you in my dreams.

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Still Missin U  / Sasha Rodriguez (Friend)
Hey my blue eyed angel wats up? I bet ur havin so much fun up there. Well i still miss u like crazy. I cant believe yesterday marked 4 months since u have left this earth. I still feel like it was yesterday. I kno i havent writtin in here in a while but my life has been so crazy lately. I dont kno wat 2 do anymore. I kno u kno wats goin on cuz u can see. So im askin if u can please watch over my brother and make sure no bad comes 2 him. and send some of ur angel friends 2 keep my moms spirits high cuz i kno she is losin them. Well ill be writtin in here soon. i love u Los and i cant wait to c u again. Close

Thinking of you  / Angel (FrIeNd)

~Carlos~

I just had to come to ya page and let you know i am Missing YOU! Everytime i get to thinking about you tears come to my eyes or i just start to cry.... Still can't believe your gone.... :(

Continue to watch over all your loved ones and friends. Can't wait till we meet again.....

 

Angel <3

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Hi Babe  / Ali Thomas (Girlfriend)

Hey Los Los,

I just wanted to say hi and tell you how much I miss you. This past week has been rough. Im not sure why exactly but I just cant seem to focus on anything but you. I wish you were here telling me Id make it through this, Los. I miss your eyes and the way you used to look at me. And I miss your smile. I miss hearing your laugh too and the way you used to say "hey gorgeous". I cant believe its been 4 months already since youve been gone. I wish things could be different. I wish somehow this didnt have to happen and you could still be here. But I know its all part of God's plan. I just have to keep looking to Him for strength because Im so lost without you. I love you with all of my heart, Carlos and I cant WAIT to see you again. Save me a spot right next to you, ok?

Loving you and thinking of you everyday,

your girl forever - ali<3

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thinking about you my son  / Carlos Diaz (father)
Los I know it's been a while since you heard from me , but I find it so hard to sit here and write things. I'm more of a face 2 face person yeah you know, I was always in your face but I did it cause I loved u   and I was worried about you. Los I can't stop talking about you that's what helps me with the void in my life of you not being there. I'ts crazy how three months passed by that quick and I remember It like It was yesterday. LOVE YOU LOS and I MISS YOU DEEEPLY. Close

To My Blue Eyed Angel  / Sasha Rodriguez (Friend)
Hey los wats up? I no i havent written to u in a while but things have been so crazy in ma life. All this drama thats goin on wit ma fam is 2 much. Im sure u c it n i no its ur spirit as well as my otha fam u wit up there helpin me get thro dis. I just wish i knew wen this would b over. Los a day doesnt go by where i dont think about u. My birthday is in 6 days!!!! Imma finally b 18!!!!!!!!!! lol. I cant wait man. Time has been goin by so fast 2. I cant believe its 2 months since u left this earth. I miss u more than ever. But i no i will c u again. Tell GOD i said hi. N save a place for me next 2 u ok? lol I love u and i miss u. RIP Close

Stopping by to say hello  / Jessica Diaz (stepmom)

Hi Los,

I know it's been weeks since i've been on, it's just we have been busy but there is not  a day that goes by that your name doesen't come up on our conversation.  We love u and miss you.  We have a memory wall just for you.  At first it was really hard but it's getting a bit easier.  I love it tho, because I get to see you every day and every moment i'm at home.  This week was a hard week for me, finally admit it to myself that I was angry at God, I know that he forgives me I'm not perfect, but I've been dealing with this and I'm not so angry anymore, just really hurt.  It takes time to figure out all the emotions we are feeling and to sort them out.  Anyways,  I love you.  You know you were like my own son.  Tito misses you so much.  We all do.  I love you.  Goodbye for now. 

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Thinkin Of U  / Sasha Rodriguez (Friend)
Hey pa wats up?? Well i still think of u everyday n i still miss u like crazy. Sorry i dont be on here as much but i am just goin thro so much. I no u no cuz i talk to u about it. We really miss u so much papi. I cant wait to c u again. But this one has to be a short 1. I just wanted to stop in n say i love u and miss u. Talk to u later. R.I.P Babyboy Close

I know your pain  / Dottie Angel Mom To Matthew Hagan ^i^ (Visitor)

Your pain is still so fresh. It never gets easier, we just learn how to go on. It is so hard to lose a son. Our children are supposed to bury us, not this way! I will pray for you and your family, Maybe My Matt and your Carlos have met and are having a great time! My Matt was 1 month and 20 days away from his 18th birthday. I also buried my baby sister, at the young age of 15. Murdered by her boyfriend. So I know what you are going through. If you ever need to talk, please just e-mail me.

 

 

Just a few graphics I have, If you want more for your site, just let me know and I will e-mail them to you.

Hang in there. We have to be strong...it's the only way to make it. that and God are allthat will get us through.

Love and Prayers

Dottie

Mattsmomma

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Letting my feelings out! I love you  / Jessica Diaz (stepmom)

For the last three days I have not been able to sleep. All I can think of is the moment on the phone and I asked the nurse to please tell me if my son was alive and she told me no.  I remember loosing it after that.  I also remember not being able to breathe and asked Ally's brother to stop the car.  At the street we were there were no way he could of stop but he then turned into a street and I got out and fell to the ground in disbelief and pain, but when I looked up, we were in front of a church.  Maybe that was you telling us to lean on GOD, for he is always there.  I miss you so much Los.  I can't help being angry and asking WHY.  Why you?  Your brother misses you so much. We all do.  You know me, I always need to know everything.  I always been a detail person and not knowing what happen that night is killing me inside.  After seeing your car, the way the officer says it happened keeps playing over and over in my head.  I miss you so much.  I can't comprehend why this happen. Why to you, why to us?  I ask God to forgive me for all the questions and anger inside of me.  I do know that you are with him, and that should be enough. We will get thru this.  It's just been really hard.  We haven't been able to finish cleaning your room.  It stills smell like you.  Your scent is there and I don't want it to go away.  Saturday was the banquet, you got MVP and it was because you deserved it.  I know how much you would've enjoyed that.  I could picture you smiling that day.  There were other memorbilias we received in your name.  Also, a memory throphy in your name was given out.  It was awesome, and the one thing I wanted the most, a video with you smiling and talking, to be able to hear your voice again.  That video was painful to watch, but then again I was happy.  I was now able to hear you.  Last night I had a funny ass dream about you.  You friends were showing me a video of you mooning them with a diaper on, it was hilarious and weird at the same time.  I pray to God every night to let me dream of you.  I know you don't want us tormenting ourselves with what happen, and I promise I will try to only think about all the moments we had the priveleged to be your parents.  I love you Los, your dad and tito loves you too.  We will always keep your memory alive.  ALWAYS.

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Missing my JERK (our lil INSIDER 4ever Carlos)  / Angel Williams (Friend)

Wow! I can't believe its been 1month ALREADY time flew past real fast. It seems like everything was just yesterday. CARLOS, i still think about u everyday. And i miss you dearly... Hope your enjoying it up there and watching down on all of us.

See ya soon love ya "JERK" Angel lol :)

<3

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I miss u babyboy  / Sasha Rodriguez (friend)
Hey pa wats up? How u like it up there? It must be great. Its been a month already n it still like yesterday i saw u n talked 2 u. I miss u so much man. I cant wait to c u again. I look at ur pics n ur smile just makes me life. I was goin thro suttin wit ma man n i was cryin n i looked on my dresser n saw ur picture i put up n i was fine. i was laughin n happy cuz its just that smile of urs. I love u los n i miss u. i cant wait to see u again. R.I.P papi Close

dealing with you not being around  / Carlos Diaz Sr (dad)
TODAY IS THE 25TH OF JUNE ONE MONTH LATER , AND I'M STILL IN SHOCK AND DISBELEIF, LOS I CAN'T ERASE THE THOUGHT OF ME TELLING YOU WHEN YOU FIRST STARTED LEARNING HOW TO DRIVE.I SAID LOS  A CAR IS A DEADLY WEAPON, YOU CAN KILL SOMEONE OR YOURSELF'I'M SORRY FOR BRINGING IT UP KNOW ,I JUST CANT HELP IT IT RUNS THROUGH MY MIND EVERYDAY AND IT WILL BE UNTIL I SEE YOU AGAIN I LOVE  YOU PAPI. LOS I REMEMBER WHEN I USE TO GO IN YOUR ROOM WHILE YOU WERE SLEEPING AND JUMP ON YOU AND YOU USE TO SAY DAD YOUR STUFF IS IS ON MY LEG ILL THAT'S GAY.LOS I MISS YOUR SMILE ,YOUR LAUGH ,YOUR SMELL ALL I'M TRYING TO SAY IS I MISS YOU. Close

Love you always!  / Jessica Diaz (stepmother)

Hey Los,

We are at the bed and breakfast today.  You would've loved it up here.  You're dad and me were talking about you today.  He had some time to himself to cry and let alot of things out.  It is so peaceful of here.  I'm glad we came, we need this peace and quite.  We still can take you off our thoughts.  Last night was rough, I was watching a movie, called 8 days to live, I think we saw it together once and I should've not watch it because I was a mess afterwards.  Anyways, today is 9 years me and your dad have been together.  As you know, the 17th was our wedding anniversary.  I was remebering how happy I was that day.  Tito was in Puerto Rico and I missed him and was sad cause he was no there, but at least I had one of my sons there.  I was remebering when I asked you, if you were happy I was your stepmom, and you said you were.  I was also remembering when I saked you if you love me and you said yeah, in that emabarrassed type of face you use to put sometimes.  I bugged you to tell me I love you until I heard it coming out of your mouth.  When you said it I cried and hugged you.  That was a wonderful day for me.  Thank you for the beautiful thoughts and memories. Please keep watching over us, especially your dad and mom.  We all miss you so much.  No matter how hard we try not to be sad, something always reminds us of you.  It's okay tho, because I do not wish to forget.  We love you baby!  We will see you again.

 

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Thinking of you!  / Jessica Diaz (Stepmother)

Hey baby boy!

Today like every other day, we were thinking about you.  There are days that we are okay and then there are those days that all we can think about is you.  How much we miss you and wish you were here.  Your friends have been over quite alot lately, they are so funny, we have a ball when they come over.  Ally has also been around.  We are going to her church tomm.  Today, is the all-star game and then the players play the coaches.  That's gonna be hilarious, I can't wait.  I know you would've enjoyed that.  Well, keep watching over us and let us keep dreaming of you.  We Love You so much and we can't help missing you. 

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Hey bro  / Sasha Rodriguez (friend)
Hey bro wuss up. Awwww i see they put up the picture i made for u on myspace. Man i miss u so much. I think about u all the time. U have me stuck on that song thats on ur profile. Ummm its called Moment of truth by F.M statics. Not even my kind of music but i love that song. lol. Well a day doesnt go by when i dont think of u. I miss u like crazi. Talk to u later. love u. r.i.p Close

HAPPY BIRTHDAY  / Jessica Diaz (stepmother)

WELL, AS YOU SEE, WE WERE AT YOUR GRAVE SUNDAY, ALL YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY WERE CELEBRATING YOUR BIRTHDAY AND REMEMBERING YOU.  YOU HAD TWO CAKES, ONE WAS HANNAH MONTANA, LOL AND YES I SAW THE PICTURE OF YOU GRABBING HER BOOB, LOL ANYWAYS, IT WAS NICE.  WE ALL HAD A GOOD LAUGH ABOUT THINGS YOU USE TO SAY AND DO.  I KNOW YOU WERE LOOKING DOWN ON US AND SAYING WHAT THE HECK, CAUSE WE ALL HAD ALOT TO SAY ABOUT YOU.  WE LOVE YOU LOS AND THERE IS NOT A DAY THAT GOES BY THAT  I DON'T THINK OF YOU.  TODAY, I FINNALLY COOK AFTER LIKE A MONTH, I WAS THINKING OF YOU THEN, JUST IMAGINING YOU SAYING "WHAT'S THE SPECIAL OCCASSION" LOL, I MISS YOU, I MISS YOU SO MUCH.  GOD HAS GIVEN US SO MUCH STRENGHT.  I'M TRYING TO JUST BE STILL AND KNOW THAT HE IS GOD.  HE KNOWS WHY THIS HAPPEN. IT STILL HURTS.  I CAN STILL HEAR YOU IN MY MIND. I LOVE YOU LOS, AND I KNOW YOU HAD A BLAST ON YOUR BIRTHDAY.

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Celebrating w/ the Angels  / Angel Williams (Friend)

Carlos,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

I love && Miss ya <3

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